Holy crap. I knew this semester was going to be tough with 18 hours but man it's worse than I thought.
But, maybe now I can adjust to it more. The past few weeks have been pretty hectic because I've basically just been getting used to my schedule and stuff. I've been putting all of my energy and focus into my grades, which, is actually working out pretty well. I have THREE studio classes and that means I have 3 big art projects to work on at a time (Photography, Printmaking, and Color Theory) of various medias, and on top of that I have THREE gen ed classes to worry about. (Writing, Biology, Theater) So, basically, what I'm trying to say is, yes this semester has been tough and definitely time-consuming, and I haven't had time for anything else, BUT I'm still adjusting and will work personal artwork back into my schedule hopefully soon.
The professor's have officially let go of the 'oh it's the first couple of weeks I'll be easy on you' phase. This week was stressful. All I did was homework. Homework, class, and sleep. No free time whatsoever. (And still sleep deprived) On top of that, I began thinking about the research topic I chose for my writing class (deep stuff), which escalated into me thinking about how complicated life is in general, how difficult things are, etc. etc. Luckily I get to come home every weekend to relax (though sometimes I still have homework) and being with my boyfriend is a huge stress-reliever and really brings me back down to earth. "Oh, life isn't so hard after all."
I do get a little free time every great once in a while, but when I do, I'm just... drained. Art block. Everything block. But I'm really trying. Once I find away to overcome this, I'm going to start just a bunch of different art projects and hopefully start a good system were I can post productively again. Just... don't give up on me!! I promise. Digital art and DA is very important to me. Of course, I HAVE been doing a lot of art projects lately, just all traditional. I probably won't post them here until I can do a bigger compilation... in the mean time, I've been posting them on Tumblr
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And here's the big news: my boyfriend bought a house! We'll be moving in in January. Of course this is EXTREMELY exciting. We've been talking about colors, decoration ideas, everything. It's really the first milestone in our relationship aside from being together for over a year. However, I do feel a little stressed. I know my parents don't care, and my boyfriend doesn't care, but I feel like a financial burden. My parents are shoveling money at me so I can go to college and my boyfriend will be paying for rent on his own. They insist I don't need to worry about it, being a full time student is hard enough, but I can't help but feel completely useless at the moment. I can work during the summers, but that's pretty much it. I'm stuck with 18 hours a semester so I can graduate on time (hopefully). The only job I could have is work study (an on campus job where you can basically get paid to do minimal work and homework at the same time) BUT I DON'T QUALIFY because of my financial standings. Which sucks.
My only alternative? Art.
Which is why I HAVE to make time for it. I want to try doing some elaborate original digital paintings and selling them for prints, and re-opening commissions in the future (and upping the prices so I can get at least $7 an hour or so).
And on a side-note, I found a way to use Wikifoundry! So I will continue to work on my site, however, as you can see I don't have much time, so it's going to be a long while before you hear much more for that.